As I silently watch how you unbuckle your seat belt and smile at me. Your delicate eyes filled with questions you want answers from, but you just don't know where to start. I feel bad as a person what more as someone who is supposed to give you plenty of love and sense of security. I know how badly you cried that night to sleep just to detox all the pain away from your body. I wished that as selfish as I am to keep you by my side, I am selfish enough to love you so that you'll stay. I'm sorry that I don't fit all the requirements from your both of your parents. I'm sorry that I place everyone first before you and expect you to place me first above everyone else. I'm deeply sorry that more of the reasons behind those late night tears was because of me. The way you sigh because you missed me so much and how you acted strong just to show me that you're fine without me. I'm scared. I'm glad you have plenty of good friends that stayed by your side during your good and your bad times. I'm sorry and I know how hard it is to go through everything alone. I'm sorry. I'll do better next time and please promise that you'll stay by my side to watch me. I appreciate your existence in my life. Thank you and I'm sorry.