Compass






I'm not sure where this is taking us.
I'll never be able to understand your intentions.
I'll never predict when things will actually come to an end.
I just wanna treasure every single moment creating memories.
Making use of each and every part of my life and time.
I'll just follow and go with wherever this is leading me.
Like a wanderer in your heart.





Bent






I guess I need some time to chill and relax.
Too tensed and stressed up.
I realized that many things won't go the way you want them to
but the least you could do is to accept it.
Then start changing what you don't like about it.
I find it interesting to listen to people's opinion.
I'm sorry to that one friend that finds it hard to blend in.
I'm sorry that I wasn't there to help.
You're safe with us now.

I find 'first impressions' really amazing. I don't know, 
maybe I would like to see myself in another person's point of view.
But just the thought of how another person would criticize 
and judge you scares the hell out of me.
I guess everyone has their own stories to tell.

I'm just gonna follow wherever my heart brings me.
:)



Music







"If either one of us happen to go first,
 I'll meet you up there someday and we'll crack dirty jokes together."

You'll be dancing to my music and I'll be laughing at your weirdness.
Thank you for being a part of my life.
❤️





Shattered Dreams







Hope's gone.
Expectations turns to disappointments.
Achievements turns to failures.
Right turns to wrong.

I deserve this.
Don't hold me back.
I deserve to be happy.
With or without you.







Anchor








Everything seems so tiring for her these days.
She knew this day would eventually come but now that it's here she's freaking out.
She's shutting everyone out from her life.
She found out that he's a liar.
Someone who pretends to go after her heart but it clearly shows it's lust from his lips.
Phone's blowing up but she don't give a fuck.
She feels nothing but pain.

"Leave Me Alone"

Guess she's just terrified of what will be written on that piece of paper tomorrow.
The only thing she could do now is to be her own anchor!





Waves









Funny how I still don't feel that way for you.
Honey it's not that easy.
I don't trust myself.
Distance don't really matter but your feelings matter.
He makes me feels safe and secure around him 
but there's something missing and nothing could describe it.
I guess it's because he played your parts so well,
I got confused for a moment there.
I need to sort my feelings out and cherish everyone.
Although deep inside I know I'm gonna leave everyone.
It's only the matter of time.
I guess the only way is to lie and
 just convince myself to go with the flow at this moment.
Just like the waves. 





Dandelions







Trying to figure out what you've said to me in the morning.
Everything still seems blurry and unclear to me.
I'm not sure why I still hold on to you.
It gets even more complicated the more I try to push you away.
I don't wanna lose you and I know it's selfish of me.
I wish I didn't need you in my life.
Thought I could blow you away but you'll return with something even bigger.
Just like the dandelions in my garden.








Lotus









Why can't you see that you're already beautiful.
You don't need to change for anyone.
I've said this countless of times,
don't be surprised of what your beauty might do to you.
It's hard blending in sometimes but it's not your fault.
Maybe because they're one step ahead of you but that doesn't prove anything.
Don't blame yourself and never for once believe that you're not beautiful.
Don't say it's not fair because you might not realize your worth
because you're all busy comparing yourself to someone else.
You'll be shocked to actually find someone who
might actually compare themselves to you.
I love you.


“Whenever you should question your self-worth, always remember the lotus flower. 
Even though it plunges to life from beneath the mud, it does not allow the dirt that surrounds it to affect its growth or beauty.” ― Suzy Kassem




Dreamcatcher





Filters bad dreams and only let the good ones in.

Dear you,
yes you with the square handkerchief in your pocket.
I'm so sorry that I can't do anything for you.
The look on your face screaming for love is 
just too much for me to handle.
The ache you felt in your heart is actually killing me.
Your crystal wet eyes staring straight into my soul breaks me.
Please be cheerful and healthy as always.
I'll be down on my knees and beg till it happens.
I'll study harder and make you proud so please.
We'll take selfies when I graduate from Uni.
You'll be the first to carry my first born child.
 I have so much to learn from you and I'm still 
immature so please be there to lecture me when I'm in wrong.
Please be there when I crack dirty jokes at her.
Please be a team with me and bombard her with weird questions.
Please be there to give comments at her spicy food.
Please forgive them on my behalf for not being sensitive enough.
I promised to not take you for granted.
I promised to be a better person.
All these vows and promises means nothing without you here.

Now it's not the time to leave yet.
Please don't disappear.
I'm sorry for being so selfish because you mean so much to me.
Your absence will be missed.
Let this all be a dream so that when I wake up tomorrow and
 you'll still be there sipping your coffee from that cup.
Please stay. 
I love you.


Black









The coffee tastes even better when I'm not alone.
I wonder why everything is less complicated with you by my side.
It has been a long time since we last spoke.
I guess everything is even more awkward when you 
sounded so happy and blessed on the phone.
I'll pray and wish that you're really enjoying your life with her.
Miss laughing to weird moments together.
Me and you.
I miss how happy and free you were before you settled down.
I miss you.

Caffeine never really played a big role in my life.
I guess the only common thing about us is black.
Just like the texture of that black coffee and colour of my soul.







Ink







There's something about tattoos that just amazed me.
No idea why or how
Maybe because it's the only thing that I know would stay permanently if i get one.

I was dusting out my old shelf and books the other day,
and I found my old diary.
I was laughing and flipping through the pages then at one point I just stop and stare at that single page.
It was blurry and everything hit me back like a hurricane,
I guess the saddest part is that I can never forget how you left me hanging and  how I grew into someone stronger today.

Have a nice day




Demons

Dear me,
You don't have to try so hard to please everyone.
Just be you. 
I know you would get anxious about certain events and certain people in your life but that's who you are and you have to deal with it whether you like it or not.
Be a better person. 
Mama told you to be happy of yourself.
He begs you to see that you're amazing.
You're beautiful and you're an art.
Start believing and 
start changing what you don't like about yourself
Stop denying that one fact that you like about yourself.
I know assignments and college life is really tough for you recently
but please treasure every moment for now.
I love you.



Yin & Yang




It's always hard trying to be there for everyone.
Maybe if you try opening your heart and at least try to accept the fact that if there are nice and lovely people out there for you,
 everything would not be as complicated as it is now.
People who are willing to cherish every minute and second you choose to spend on them. People who are eternally grateful for what you have done for them on their behalf. 
People who would be happy just to see you smiling from your eyes.
Will you promise that you would start loving yourself more?
Start loving yourself and everything you see that is flawing now,
would fit perfectly in the future.
Try to not expect anything back in return, give without thinking and you would be a happier person. Stop pushing people away.
Don't expect everyone to be nice to you because that's too naive in the world that we live in.


Just like yin & yang.



Dead

Karma


She's back at it again. 
Every unpleasant things they've said whether they meant it or not.
Those words that they randomly threw purely for their 
own entertainment won't care if she's actually hurting and dying on the inside. 
Maybe just maybe if she was prettier they would consider taking
all those nasty words back but when that shit happens,
it would not matter anymore because she'll be gone by then.
Don't feel sorry for her because you're the reason behind those ugly scars on her body.
"Those who mind don't matter, those who matter don't mind."