The oxygenated sadness




You sneak into my life silently without me knowing.
You were pure and beautiful.
Your laughter and happiness is like oxygen.
An element that I can't seem to live without.
Despite climate changes and the messy storms,
I still gasp to breathe you in and every time I don't, 
I feel like I'm running out of breath.
It's like my body is telling me that I have insufficient amount of you to keep me oxygenated.
However, time is proving that instead of inhaling oxygen,
I'm breathing in toxic gases that feels like oxygen.





The Espressolab






I have never liked the way coffee tasted on my lips.
But today, I fell a little deeper for coffee because I thought the bitterness of my coffee
could cover up all the bitterness in me.
So I would have a valid reason to be bitter.
But instead of being all bitter, you tasted sweet.



Your fears



You told me that love is just a bunch of lies that has been sugarcoated to make it seems less painful. I guess the real thing lies with you love. I hope I'm strong enough to hold on to you.
Sorry to let you experience your fears all alone. I'm sorry that you missed you mother every single time you see someone hugging their mom. I'm sorry that you think every couple is blessed because they have each other. I'm sorry that my presence is never enough. I'm sorry that you'll have to fight your war all by yourself,
I'm sorry.

The great companion



As I silently watch how you unbuckle your seat belt and smile at me. Your delicate eyes filled with questions you want answers from, but you just don't know where to start. I feel bad as a person what more as someone who is supposed to give you plenty of love and sense of security. I know how badly you cried that night to sleep just to detox all the pain away from your body. I wished that as selfish as I am to keep you by my side, I am selfish enough to love you so that you'll stay. I'm sorry that I don't fit all the requirements from your both of your parents. I'm sorry that I place everyone first before you and expect you to place me first above everyone else. I'm deeply sorry that more of the reasons behind those late night tears was because of me. The way you sigh because you missed me so much and how you acted strong just to show me that you're fine without me. I'm scared. I'm glad you have plenty of good friends that stayed by your side during your good and your bad times. I'm sorry and I know how hard it is to go through everything alone. I'm sorry. I'll do better next time and please promise that you'll stay by my side to watch me. I appreciate your existence in my life. Thank you and I'm sorry.